Wednesday, July 20, 2011

July 25th

Hey Friends,

To say that I am dreading July 25th could be the understatement of the century. I'm scared for that date to arrive after the past year of my life. It will mark the 6 month anniversary of Macie receiving her angel wings and the 1 year mark for my best friend Jenny. In the back of my mind I can't help but think, "whose next"? In the same thought I always think why me. I know God doesn't give you more than you can handle, but some days I think he has given me way more than I can or should have to handle. My daughter, my life, has been gone for almost 6 months. It really doesn't seem possible. I still remember this day 6 months ago like it was yesterday. It was January 20th, the day after Chris' birthday.

The snow in Kansas City was horrible and Chris had to plow all night on his birthday and didn't get home until the next afternoon. Macie and I played and slept and then played some more. I still remember every detail. It was the first time I got her to belly laugh so I just kept trying to get her to over and over, but I never could get it on video. Every time I started to take video she would get quiet like she knew what I was up to.  The second I put the video down she would belly laugh like clock work. I took a lot of pictures the night of Macie and sent them to Chris and put Happy Birthday on them. I hated that he wasn't home on his birthday, but I just kept thinking there will be plenty more so it wasn't a huge deal. The next day the daycare was closed due to the weather. I didn't go anywhere that day and my parents came in that night to hang out with Macie for the weekend. I don't know why I remember every little detail, but I do. I could tell you what time I woke up, what time she woke up, what time I fed her, what outfit I put her in, everything.

One of the pictures I took the night of Chris' birthday is the picture we chose to have put on her headstone. It is below and she is the prettiest baby I have ever seen, but I'll be the first to admit I'm bias :). I also put below a couple of my video's of me being goofy trying to get Macie to belly laugh. She definitely already had the "mom you are weird" look down! Enjoy!




Take Care,
Lisa


Wednesday, July 6, 2011

9 Months...

Hey Friends,

If someone would have asked me what I would be doing 9 months from now the day Macie was born I never would have said this. I never thought this would be my life... devastated and mourning the loss of my daughter. I am too young for this, but most days I feel like I am 27 going on 60. I have experienced more life and pain than anyone needs to in a lifetime. I have experienced pain I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.

Yesterday and today I have been having a really hard time. Granted every day is a challenge, but yesterday and today I have had a hard time focusing and staying dry eyed at work. I get to thinking about Macie and I hear her cooing or belly laughing in my head and then I will look at her pictures I have on my desk and I want to bawl my eyes out...This hurts. I believe the saying goes 1 step forward and 2 steps back...

9 months ago today at this time I was holding and enjoying my hours old perfect, beautiful baby girl...I wish I could go back in time. I want her back. I miss her. This isn't fair...

I have been having a horrible day. Thanks for listening friends.

Take Care,
Lisa

Caylee Anthony

Hey Friends,

There is a petition going around to help implement a new law called Caylee's Law. This law, if it is passed, will make it a federal offense not to report a child missing within 24 hours. I think this is a fantastic law and definitely needs to be put into action! Please click on the link below and sign the petition.

Vote for Caylee's Law!

Take Care,
Lisa

Day in Court

Hey Friends,


Macie’s Babysitter had a criminal summons issued yesterday for False Impersonation on 1/25/11 (The Day Macie got her Angel Wings) and her day in court is scheduled. You can read about it on the Missouri Courts website: https://www.courts.mo.gov/casenet/cases/searchCases.do?searchType=caseNumber and enter in case #11CA-CR00875. This should take you directly to the case file, but let me know if you can't find it.


Take Care,
Lisa

It is our understanding that she is being charged with False Impersonation for lying to the police about her daycare license. However, the state is going after her not us so please don't quote me.