Sunday, October 16, 2011

A Sign

Hey Friends,

Well this past week I decided it was time to schedule an appointment with my OB for the lovely female yearly check and to discuss baby #2, whether it is 10 months or 5 years from now I'm ready to discuss. However, when I called the office to schedule an appointment I found out that my OB was no longer there. I instantly could feel myself start to panic. I wanted to throw a temper tantrum and say, "WHAT!?!?! What do you mean they aren't there! I need my OB to be there!" instead I just kept my calm and said thank you and hung up. So I got on my insurance plan website found another OB that is considered in-network, has great ratings and is close to me. I called and scheduled my appointment and the first available appointment she has is Nov. 11th so that is a good sign to me that she must be good that I have to wait! And 11-11-11 is suppose to be a lucky day so maybe the stars will align and it'll go perfectly and she will be everything I could want in an OB. I'm nervous though. She doesn't know anything about me or Macie so I will have to start at the beginning and tell my story. I know I'll cry and I'm praying she is understanding. They are sending me a form to sign so I can have my medical record sent over so that will help, hopefully?!?!

I have been thinking of baby names in my head a lot recently which is something I started doing before I became pregnant with Macie. Maybe it's a sign, I guess we will see. So far the names that I have thought of and like a lot are Layla Marie or Layla Ann for a girl and Wyatt Christopher, Wyatt Alan, Wyatt Thomas, or Beau Thomas for a boy. Why do I already have baby names picked out when I'm not pregnant and am just starting to think about the possibility of it? Good question I guess that is just the OCD in me. I also based the names off of what sounded best with Macie. Macie and Layla, Macie and Wyatt or Macie and Beau...I think they all have a nice ring to them. :)

With starting to think practically about baby #2 these past few weeks the fear has also started to appear. When I think of baby names I am happy and think it's time to try again, but then I think of Macie and the reality and pain set in and then I think I can't do this again out of fear the same outcome will happen. So I guess I'm really not sure when or where the path will take me, but hopefully after talking to the new OB Nov. 11th I'll calm down a little! 

Hope y'all had a nice weekend with this great fall weather!

Take Care,


  1. I think it's wonderful that you're thinking about baby #2, though I know how the fear can creep in as well. I hope God blesses you with a healthy baby soon. And of course I think Wyatt's a great name :)

  2. I'm still pregnant with Asa and even my husband said the other day, "if we have another boy, his name with be..." - It used to be only me that did that! Because we're not even sure we'll have more kids (this is our 5th) And yes, all the names you like sound good with Macie :o)

  3. I am so happy for you!!! I hope your Ob turns out to be the best one ever!!!

  4. Well, whatever you decide to do, I am praying for you. I know you will worry, but that is normal. I hope your new OB is wonderful! Good luck to you and your husband! God Bless.

  5. I think it is great that you want to try for #2. I hope you like your new OB doctor. It is so important to have a doctor you like. Love your name choices too.

  6. I think you're amazing and it's wonderful that you're considering having another baby. I remember thinking once after losing my baby girl that I was done. I'm not having anymore. I can't go through this again. I have 2 older kids that had the privilege of knowing her, holding her and loving her. If I have more kids, they won't ever know her. It didn't seem right. I was a roller coaster of ups and downs. We did, however, decide to have more. Since my daughter has graduated to Heaven, we've been blessed with 2 more sons. I can't describe what it was like when that first one was born. But I can tell you that it's amazing! Indescribable! He's 2 now and does know that he has a big sister. Sometimes he'll carry her picture around and hug it or kiss it. Sometimes he'll ask to sleep with her blankie. (all the kids do this on ocassion) We've all made her very known to him. Whenever you decide to have another one, God will give you exactly what you need at the exact right time. Whether it be a boy or another precious'll be exactly what you need and they'll love Macie as if they've always known her.