Well this past week I decided it was time to schedule an appointment with my OB for the lovely female yearly check and to discuss baby #2, whether it is 10 months or 5 years from now I'm ready to discuss. However, when I called the office to schedule an appointment I found out that my OB was no longer there. I instantly could feel myself start to panic. I wanted to throw a temper tantrum and say, "WHAT!?!?! What do you mean they aren't there! I need my OB to be there!" instead I just kept my calm and said thank you and hung up. So I got on my insurance plan website found another OB that is considered in-network, has great ratings and is close to me. I called and scheduled my appointment and the first available appointment she has is Nov. 11th so that is a good sign to me that she must be good that I have to wait! And 11-11-11 is suppose to be a lucky day so maybe the stars will align and it'll go perfectly and she will be everything I could want in an OB. I'm nervous though. She doesn't know anything about me or Macie so I will have to start at the beginning and tell my story. I know I'll cry and I'm praying she is understanding. They are sending me a form to sign so I can have my medical record sent over so that will help, hopefully?!?!
I have been thinking of baby names in my head a lot recently which is something I started doing before I became pregnant with Macie. Maybe it's a sign, I guess we will see. So far the names that I have thought of and like a lot are Layla Marie or Layla Ann for a girl and Wyatt Christopher, Wyatt Alan, Wyatt Thomas, or Beau Thomas for a boy. Why do I already have baby names picked out when I'm not pregnant and am just starting to think about the possibility of it? Good question I guess that is just the OCD in me. I also based the names off of what sounded best with Macie. Macie and Layla, Macie and Wyatt or Macie and Beau...I think they all have a nice ring to them. :)
With starting to think practically about baby #2 these past few weeks the fear has also started to appear. When I think of baby names I am happy and think it's time to try again, but then I think of Macie and the reality and pain set in and then I think I can't do this again out of fear the same outcome will happen. So I guess I'm really not sure when or where the path will take me, but hopefully after talking to the new OB Nov. 11th I'll calm down a little!
Hope y'all had a nice weekend with this great fall weather!