One thing that popped in my head this morning was that I am a childless mother on Mother's Day. Yes Macie will always be in my heart and will always be my daughter, but she isn't here anymore and therefore I am childless. I kept telling myself today was going to be ok and that I will make it through. I try to mentally prepare myself for the extra hard days and today it didn't work. I just feel blah and depressed today. When I woke up I just started crying. I have thought of so many things I should be doing vs. what I am doing because I have had to endure the hardest thing any mother will ever encounter. My daughter is in Heaven and so today is not a good day. I'm not trying to sound angry or hateful, but today is just down right impossible.
Below is the first picture taken of Macie & I. Don't mind how horrible I look, I had literally just had her. :)