Well it is April 6th...Chris and I should be having a family dinner celebrating having a 6 month old baby girl and enjoying all of her milestones. Instead it is just the 2 of us again like it was last spring. It's depressing, it hurts and it is simply just a hard day.
Well I said it myself be thankful for the road you are on. Some people might think what does she have to be thankful for? And trust me I have thought this myself a time or two. But at the end of the day I'm very thankful for every last second I had with Macie. Thankful I was chosen to be the mother to a perfect angel while she was here on earth for 3 months and 19 days. Yes things happen to you in your life that are unfair and unjust, but how you deal with them defines you. Macie has changed me many times since the day I found out I was pregnant with her. And I would like to think she has changed me for the better. Even in death she is still changing me and giving me strength to do things that I would not of otherwise had.
While I was on FaceBook tonight this box came up on the right hand side that said Memorable Status Updates and the status was Chris' so I clicked on it to read...
This was the status:
Home with my little family got to say I loved seeing my family, but I love it being just me, Lisa and Macie
November 28, 2010 at 1:46pm via Mobile Web
Oh I miss those days. We loved being a family. We felt so complete, so perfect... our life has been shattered and some days it is hard to even get out of bed let alone make it through the whole day.
Tomorrow is a new day.