Sunday, April 24, 2011


Hey Friends,

I never thought Macie's first Easter would be like this. We went to the cemetery to put her Easter bouquet on her grave today. It's just so unfair. The first Holiday without her and I have found myself angry and so sad. When we were leaving Chris said this isn't the way it was suppose to be. He is right, it's not. We should have been getting her all dressed up in her new Easter dress with a big bow on her head and showing her off. Not pulling into the cemetery to put flowers on our daughters grave. I'm sure she looked gorgeous today with her angel wings learning first hand what this day truly means.

One of my baby shower gifts was a set of bibs that had every Holiday on them that say babies 1st. Macie wore her Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year one. She never gets to wear any of the other ones... just another thing that breaks my heart. I put her Easter one in with her bouquet I made that we layed on top of her grave. She isn't with us today, but it's still her first Easter. I will post a picture soon.

Tomorrow is the 25th. Tomorrow marks 3 months since Macie got her angel wings. In a few more weeks she will have been gone longer than she was here. Hard to believe and such a gut wrenching thought when it stills feels like yesterday to me.

Take Care,


  1. Lisa, I pray for strength for you and chris I know its hard on both of you . I couldn't imagine loosing any of my babies . macie was such a beautiful baby girl i know she is looking down smiling at both of you.

  2. Lisa,
    I am so sorry. My heart breaks with you. You are so right about her getting to experience the true meaning of Easter. I sure do wish that I was there with her today!!! It has to be so AWESOME to celebrate Easter with the ONE its all about. Praying for you!!!

  3. I know it won't comfort you but my heart aches for you and your husband! I cannot even begin to phathom what ya'll are going through! I am praying for you and sending lots of love and hugs your way from Kentucky!

  4. I want you both to know that I think of you and your family EVERY day! GOD Bless

  5. Lisa,
    You don't know me, but I want you to know that there is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you and your family. I have an overwhelming need to help you...the only way I know how.
    I have been working very hard to raise awareness for SIDS and my focus has been on in-home daycares. I myself care for children, I left the corporate world after having a bad experience.
    I would like to think I do a wonderful job and until I meet you so to speak I truly thought that.
    I have learned so much about SIDS things I never knew and I am working to spread the word. I have taken it upon myself to help raise funds to go to TEAM M so families some day will no longer have such heart ach.
    I want to wish you luck this week and let you know that the children, their families and I are working hard all week to make sure Friday is huge here in Western Shawnee. You take care and know that Macie and Maddie are two angels that have made a mother of four forever touched and thankful.

  6. I know that holidays are hard, extrememly different actually. I hope that these next few weeks are okay - I remember counting the days, weeks until "something" ((hugs)) I don't do it has often now - mostly I count to big events which is easier than every Monday being another week he has been gone...thinking of you.