Thursday, March 24, 2011

Strength through Macie

Hey Friends,

This song was sent to me today and it impacted me a lot when I listened to it. Especially the first minute of this song. I have listened to it multiple times throughout the day so far and it isn’t even 5 yet! (I posted it at the bottom)

The song talks about untaken pictures….well……I wanted the 3 of us to get professional family pictures taken. I wanted to wait until spring when Macie was 6 months old and could sit up by herself and I had lost all of the baby weight. I was SO excited to get these taken…listen to me when I say Never Wait to do anything! If you want something done do it that day! Don’t delay! Yes I have family pictures that people took, but I don’t have any professional family pictures which is something I sincerely regret not having. I wanted us to all match in Husker gear (Yes we are HUGE Nebraska Football fans), and then maybe 1 or 2 more different outfits. I thought it was going to look so cute.…. This would fall into the if only I had done this category.

I have been talking to Macie a lot (in my head) which I do every day, but last night for the first time when I was having the mother/daughter conversation in my head I was excited about something. I guess there is a first for everything!! Instead of talking to her about how much I missed her I was talking to her about how we were going to spread the knowledge of SIDS! I want people to know my daughter, see her beauty, know our story and understand how much she is truly loved by all. When we met with Pastor Wicks he said something I will never forget, don’t let the loss of your daughter be wasted pain. So I’m taking the best advice anyone could have ever given me and I’m spreading the knowledge. If I could scream it from the roof tops I probably would!! It is SO important for parents to know how to prevent SIDS and if by spreading this information it can help another child not lose their life so a parent does not have to experience this pain then I know I am doing my part for Macie. My journey is just beginning because I’ll never stop advocating for SIDS. I’ll never stop hoping and praying that the knowledge can be found on how to make sure it never happens again. My strength to do this and everything else these past 8 weeks and 2 days is from my beautiful daughter that I miss more each day, Macie.

Take Care,


  1. I came across your blog through Kelly Staats blog. i am truly sorry for your loss. No one should ever have to go through what you two are going through. I noticed you were from Lees Summit. I actually live in Overland Park, Ks, not to far from you! ;) I just wanted to tell you that you and your family will always be in our prayers. Macie will always be your guardian angel. God Bless you.

  2. Wow Lisa. What a perfect song for what you are going through. Tears were streaming down my face as I listened to it. I still can't believe this happened and to you and Chris of all people who are so loving. I think about you constantly. Although we have lost touch over the past few years please know I am thinking of you and am here for you.

  3. Beautiful song..Thank you for sharing.

    I'm glad you are spreading the word on SIDS. There are a great deal of Mommys that don't follow the guidelines because they just don't know the facts. I'm glad something great can happen from this horrible tragedy. Its not fair, and it should not happen to anyone.

    Blessings to you and your family.

  4. Lisa,
    Your post was so sweet and encouraging for other mom who are going through what you are. I am with you on spreading the word. If it just saves one baby's life then it will be worth all the work put into spreading the word. I am praying for you and I know that I tell you all the time but you are always on my prayer chain. I am so glad that you are letting God help you through this instead of getting angry with him and turning your back on him. We all have our bad days but then I think back to what was said in the book that I read... Jesus is the best babysitter and that makes me so happy to know that He is the one who watches over out Angels now. Yes, I know we want them here but then I think about what this horrible world has to offer them, NOTHING and then I think about what they have. I want what they have and I can't wait until that day we do get what they have. I want to go where they are so I can see all my loved ones. I hope you have another good day Lifting you up!!!

  5. I found your blog from a friends link on fb, I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby Macie. I will be praying for you and your Husband. I can only thank you as another Mom for the work you are doing to raise awareness about SIDS, I have taken this issue very seriously since my Daughter was born in Nov. I hope more people will read and learn. Praying for you...