This song was sent to me today and it impacted me a lot when I listened to it. Especially the first minute of this song. I have listened to it multiple times throughout the day so far and it isn’t even 5 yet! (I posted it at the bottom)
The song talks about untaken pictures….well……I wanted the 3 of us to get professional family pictures taken. I wanted to wait until spring when Macie was 6 months old and could sit up by herself and I had lost all of the baby weight. I was SO excited to get these taken…listen to me when I say Never Wait to do anything! If you want something done do it that day! Don’t delay! Yes I have family pictures that people took, but I don’t have any professional family pictures which is something I sincerely regret not having. I wanted us to all match in Husker gear (Yes we are HUGE Nebraska Football fans), and then maybe 1 or 2 more different outfits. I thought it was going to look so cute.…. This would fall into the if only I had done this category.
I have been talking to Macie a lot (in my head) which I do every day, but last night for the first time when I was having the mother/daughter conversation in my head I was excited about something. I guess there is a first for everything!! Instead of talking to her about how much I missed her I was talking to her about how we were going to spread the knowledge of SIDS! I want people to know my daughter, see her beauty, know our story and understand how much she is truly loved by all. When we met with Pastor Wicks he said something I will never forget, don’t let the loss of your daughter be wasted pain. So I’m taking the best advice anyone could have ever given me and I’m spreading the knowledge. If I could scream it from the roof tops I probably would!! It is SO important for parents to know how to prevent SIDS and if by spreading this information it can help another child not lose their life so a parent does not have to experience this pain then I know I am doing my part for Macie. My journey is just beginning because I’ll never stop advocating for SIDS. I’ll never stop hoping and praying that the knowledge can be found on how to make sure it never happens again. My strength to do this and everything else these past 8 weeks and 2 days is from my beautiful daughter that I miss more each day, Macie.